Thursday, July 23, 2009

"Very little is needed to make a happy life."

These are just a few things that made me smile today...

Tuesday, July 21, 2009

"Well internets..."

As I currently have no life and I am basically spending every waking moment on the 'internets' I have stumbled across a delightful little nugget called 'sxephil'.
Basically my perfect man, 'sxephil' or Phillip DeFranco, is a young man with his own youtube channel on which he posts a show each day discussing politics, media, celebrities and the worlds most rediculous news stories.
However, when researching 'sxephil' for this post I discovered that this poor kid is not particularily popular with his internet collegues. Most of the websites that I found described him as a douche bag and 'Dane Cook wanna be'. I think that it is extremely unfortunate that, while attempting to educate the masses, this kid must deal with people who have nothing else to do but criticize.
But I digress...if you're interested, look up Phillip DeFranco on

Sunday, July 19, 2009

"Oh this is a 'Dear Diary' moment."

Today when I was cleaning my room I came across the journals I've kept since 2000. Part of me finds these journals absolutley hilarious. Being concerned about boys whose names I can't remember now, stressing about money and mulling over future plans. I was very surprised that so many of of the statements in the journals were so decisive, so clear, so definate and so...wrong. I seemed so sure of myself. So sure that I was going to do theatre for the rest of my life. So sure that is where I belonged. So sure that each fight with a friend was the end of the world. So sure that 'this time' I was 'in love', that 'this time' it was different. So sure that one particular person was the enemy, the root of all evil, the cause of all my problems.

Over the past year I have evolved from writing in my journal to sharing my thoughts on this blog. I still write in my journal every now and then because there are things that no one who reads this blog really want to know about. Of course there are also things that I don't want them to know about and things that I don't want to be seen by internet surfing randoms. Part of me misses the total freedom of writing in a journal, knowing that no one will read it and that 'comments' aren't encouraged.

Despite being absolutley mortified by some of the thoughts and comments that I have put on paper, I think that my old journals are very valuable. Not only do they allow me to re-evaluate my decisions, opinions and mistakes but they also inspire me to continue to learn about myself. Self improvement is something that I am very passionate about and in these journals I have gathered so many thoughts and theories (my own and others) that will continue to aid me in my journey of self discovery. The journals are filled with quotes from books I have written, movies and plays I have seen, songs I have listened to and people I've met. Every now and then there is a random artistic expression of my joy, frustration, confusion etc.

I know that, despite how painful it is to revisit this past, sometimes it is worth so that you may improve your future.

"You can still live on that shimmering line between your old thinking and your new understanding, always in a state of learning."

Friday, July 17, 2009

The World Funniest Website

A few gems from my new favorite

Where do you even find suits like this?

There are just so many things wrong with this picture.


Gone, but not forgotten.

It's in The Constitution, bitches.

An extremely frightening use of least I hope it is.

Thursday, July 16, 2009

Things I Love...A through Zed (not Zee..Zed!)

A is for...the Ace of Cakes with my future husband, Duff Goldman. I don't care if he is Jewish. I would convert.

C is for...Chandeliers, Canada, Cupcakes.

D is for...Disney World. C'mon now. What else would it be? (Although 'dogs' came a close second).

E is for...Erin, my best friend since forever!

F is family is amazing.

G is for...gardening. When I was a kid I used to wake up early on Saturdays not to watch cartoons but to watch gardening shows. And I asked for a pond for my 13th birthday. I was a weird kid.

H is for...Harry Potter. All the books, all the movies, all the culture. Everything about it.

I is for...The I-75. It either means I am going to Disney World or I am coming home after a year of working there...both GREAT things!

J is for...Johnny Depp. He is handsome and brilliant and well spoken.

K is for...kissing. 'Nuff said.

L is for..."Lost". Best. Show. Ever.

M is Duh.

N is Nana. Pretty much the most amazing person on the planet.

O is for...old journals. Reading your old journals is one of the most enlightening, embaressing, hilarious and frustrating thing in the world.

P is for...Port Dover. A beautiful town on the shores of Lake Erie.

Q is for...quiet time. Sometimes I really like to be alone and read a book and listen to some music. That is why I am so excited to be moving into my own one bedroom apartment in a month.

R is for...Roger, my bunny rabbit. Get it? Roger Rabbit?
S is for...Sara, my other best friend. Basically the most thoughtful person on the planet.

T is for...Tim Hortons. Especially after living in the United States for a year and not being able to get it!

U is for...underwear. More specifically cute underwear.

V is for...Victoria and Alberts. A very swanky restaurant in the Grand Floridian Resort at Disney World. Worth every single dollar of your $150.
W is for...The Weakerthans. My favorite band...ever.

X is for..."xoxo" at the end of all of my text messages, cards, letters and e-mails.
Y is for..."You've Got Mail"'s a sappy romantic comedy but I love it.

Z is for...being back in a country where people pronounce this properly. It's Zed, not Zee, ZED!

People are always trying to tell me 'change is good'. But all that it means is something you didn't want to happen, has happened.

When you move back home and you are surrounded by places, things and people that you've known all your life...change seems like a much angrier beast. Change is something that has come in, while you were away, and closed your favorite restaurant, moved your ex-boyfriend to another city, gotten your friends engaged and convinced your best friend to buy a house. How dare it come in and change your whole life around while you were gone?! And how are you supposed to adjust to all of this? Isn't it bad enough that you have to learn how to use the new microwave that your parents bought and go to a new hair salon? Hasn't this beast put you through enough?

"All changes, even the most longed for, have their melancholy;
for what we leave behind us is a part of ourselves;
we must die to one life before we can enter another." ~Anatole France

Today I search for wisdom because I have no wisdom of my own, I only have my observations. Change has never been easy for me. Big changes, little changes, superficial changes...I saw them all as a threat to my way of life. A new sofa or chair, different pillows on my bed, a new microwave or refrigerator...all of these things are small and seemingly insignificant when they happen one at a time. However, when everything changes so quickly it becomes overwhelming.

"Things do no change. We change." ~Henry David Thoreau

However, I know that it isn't the new furniture or appliances that really bother me, they are just manifestations. What I am really having trouble with are the changes in my family unit, the health of a loved one...rapidly detiorating, moving out and moving on.

"For everything you have missed,
you have gained something else,
and for everything you gain,
you lose something else."
~Ralph Waldo Emerson
Part of me is extremely excited to start another journey, another adventure. I know that this road, like all roads worth taking, will have challenges and frustrations. I also know that I could not have stayed where I was, doing what I was doing...and I cannot stay where I am now, doing nothing. Therefore my choices are limited. I must accept and embrace change and move on or dwell on how things used to be. The choice seems clear however, at the moment, it is blurred by strong memories and old emotions.
"Life belongs to the living, and he who lives must be prepared for changes."
~Johann Wolfgang von Goethe

Friday, July 3, 2009